Alison Boschoff: Pamela Anderson says stealing sex tape brought back the pain of being raped at age 12
Pamela Anderson says the theft of her sex tape was a reminder of the helplessness and trauma she experienced after being raped at age 12 – and attacks hit drama Pam & Tommy for “re-traumatizing” her.
Starring British actress Lily James as Anderson and Sebastian Stan as her husband Tommy Lee, the Hulu series offered intimate scenes for laughs.
“It gives me nightmares,” she said of the Emmy and Golden Globe nominated show. I didn’t sleep last night.
“I don’t want to watch it,” added the 55-year-old model and actress. I will never watch it. I’ve never seen the tape, and I won’t watch this one. Who knows how they will draw it. Nobody really knows what we were going through at that time. They had to get my permission.
Pamela Anderson says her sex tape theft triggered memories of feeling helpless after being raped at age 12 — and attacks drama series, Pam and Tommy, for ‘re-traumatizing’ her
I texted Tommy one day and said, “How do you feel about everything?” And he said, “Pamela, just don’t let her hurt you as much as she did the first time.”
She continued, “I blocked it out of my life in order to survive, it was a survival mechanism really, and now that it’s popping up again, I feel sick to my whole stomach.” I now feel like my stomach has been punched.
This looks as if the tape has been stolen. Basically you are just a thing owned by the world.
While on their honeymoon in Mexico, the couple shot a 54-minute home video on Hi8 videotape, most of which is just ‘swallowing it’. It involved about eight minutes of sex.
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According to a police report filed by the couple in 1995, the tape was in a safe in their home along with the guns – AK-47,NC assault rifle, . 45-70 caliber rifle and a stainless steel Mossberg rifle plus a Rolex watch, gold. – and a diamond Cartier watch and the white bikini Anderson wore to their wedding.
The safe was stolen entirely in October 1995 by electrician Rand Gauthier, whom the couple had robbed and believed they owed him money. He was played by comedian Seth Rogen in the movie.
Gauthier says he drove their 6ft x 3ft x 4ft locker out of their garage hitched to a cart in the dead of night after bypassing their security system.
He had no idea what its contents were until he opened it, and later recalled thinking: ‘We put it in the (video machine) and see what it is, and of course, cha-ching!’ Dollar signs flutter before our eyes. But we’re going, this is the kind of thing that people would kill for.
“It gives me nightmares,” Anderson said of the Emmy and Golden Globe nominated show. I didn’t sleep last night. Pictured: Lily James and Sebastian Stan in Pam & Tommy
In March 1996, realizing that VHS copies were circulating, the couple filed a $10 million civil suit against everyone they believed might have a copy, including Penthouse Magazine. Meanwhile, the tape was being sold on websites and also broadcast on the Internet by Internet doraemon Seth Warsawski.
In November 1997, the couple signed the copyright to it, after which Warshavsky’s Club Love sold access to the tape. Club Love then made a deal to make VHS copies of it.
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Anderson tells Pamela’s Netflix documentary, Love Story, which comes out Jan. 31, that it still haunts her.
She said: ‘It was a really happy time in my life but I didn’t realize that everything was about to change. We had no idea that anything out there would hurt us.
The first idea came when a copy of a VHS tape was sent through the mail. Tommy Lee watched it. “He says, ‘This is going to be annoying,’” Anderson said. This is a VHS video of us having sex. Gosh. We realized they had our home videos being “Oh ***!” Nowadays.
We were newlyweds who were naked all the time and just photographed each other on vacations and stuff. That was just us being foolish. They found all the nudity they could from various Hi 8 tapes and spliced it together.
They were at a loss as to how to get the tape back and started legal action. Anderson was pregnant with her second son, Dylan.
“I didn’t know I was going to be so utterly humiliated,” she said, “I remember walking into the courtroom and all the lawyers had these nude pictures of me.” They said, “You were in Playboy, you have no right to privacy.”
The 55-year-old model said she felt “utterly humiliated” after the leak
How am I being questioned about my sexual preferences, body parts, and where I would like to make love when it’s his stolen property? It made me feel like a horrible woman, that I’m just a piece of meat and it means nothing to me because I’m basically a whore.
She adds that this brought back the feelings of shame and helplessness that she had suffered when she was raped.
She told the documentary that when she was 12, she went into an apartment owned by a man her friend had a crush on. The friend with the owner went upstairs and I was left with his friend, who was 25 years old, downstairs. They played backgammon, then he told her she looked like she needed a massage, and he raped her. She didn’t tell anyone.
“I was so ashamed of what happened,” she tells the documentary. I felt it was my fault. My mom always cried for my dad, and I couldn’t bear to hurt her any more. I didn’t tell her or anyone.
She says about the court case: “I don’t know how many days it was taken off, but they wanted me to come back and come back. I just said to Tommy, “I can’t take it any longer.”
‘It was a really happy time in my life,’ she said, ‘but I didn’t realize that everything was about to change.’
I know some people would have fought to the death for it but I am pregnant and I don’t want this to affect the baby. Tommy and I had our first miscarriage, and we were terrified it would happen again. We’re not going to put Dylan’s life in danger. It totally devastated me but I closed my eyes and signed the papers.
They didn’t make a dime out of the tape. “You can’t put a monetary number on the amount of pain and suffering you’ve caused,” she adds. Its name has become a joke of a thousand jokes.
It was different for me than it was for him, she said. Tommy the rock star – adds to the image of insanity and everything for him. But I knew at that point that my career was over.
Pamela, A Love Story, is coming to Netflix from January 31st.